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Yeah, I Used To Love You by PunkerRocker43, literature

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Yeah, I Used To Love You

Yeah, I used to love you. But that was then this is now. Yeah, I used to love you. But I'm smarter now. Yeah, I used to love hearing the sound of your voice Yeah I used to love you without a choice. Yeah, I used to think you were nice Now I'm mad at myself for not thinking twice. Yeah I used to love the way you made me laugh Yeah I used to love how you made me feel, the way you made everything seem all right Yeah I used to think you would come back when you disapeared from my sight. Yeah I used to love our long talks about bliss Yeah I used to love thinking about my 1st kiss. But now, when I ask myself, Do I love you? The an

Tears of Joy by PunkerRocker43, literature

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Tears of Joy

Tonight I heard about the call Something had happened that had changed us all Me mostly for I realized how much I cared And how I didn't know what I would do if you werent there I asked how you were They said you were fine But I heard the crying He had to've been lying Only pretending to be relieved I rushed out the door Not knowing what to believe Adam was scared and I was too I had no idea what had happened to you I was fearing the worst And I was afraid I'd be hurt We tore down the road And quick as a flash We got there in time But we were the last I jumped out of the car and ran up to meet you Leaving my jacket A s

Almost by PunkerRocker43, literature

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Almost

You almost had me fooled I almost thought you cared You almost made me wish When I was scared That you were there You almost made me fall in love Though you always made me cry Even during the fights where you'd scream and shout and tell me I should die You almost had me in the palm of your hand You almost thought you won But what you need to understand You not only lost the game of love You lost me too, hun I almost let you crush my goals I almost always lived in fear You ripped my heart and now it's full of hole How dare you call me 'dear' I almost let you do these things That would've ruined my life Now you know what sor

Cause I Hate You by PunkerRocker43, literature

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Cause I Hate You

I smacked you? I did that cause I hate you. I make fun of you? I do that cause I hate you. I ignore you? I ignore you cause I hate you. I talked about you behind your back? I talk cause I hate you. I have a picture of you on my wall? I have it cause I hate you.... My journal is filled with your name? Uh...I wrote it cause I hate you. You're all I think about? Well... I think cause I hate you. I trip when I see you? I trip cause I hate you! I lie about hating you? ...I do that cause I love you...

Mistake by PunkerRocker43, literature

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Mistake

Are mistakes always forgivin? Can I breathe again and keep on livin? This poem is my feelings I can hardly write Based on what you know my bark is as bad as my bite This poem is my heart I can hardly think I cant get over why I winked You called me a bitch It served me right I just pray to someone up there it wont be a long fight I'm sorry about my big mouth I'm sorry about my IQ And I understand if you dont forgive me for what I've done to you I guess I agree, I'd be pissed too But what you need to know is I FREAKIN LOVE YOU Please dont let me down this way Just stay my friend for one more day I just want you for my own

James and Jaci's Poem by PunkerRocker43, literature

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Black Tears by PunkerRocker43, literature

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Black Tears

Don't try and make her smile Don't sit with her awhile She'll just look up at you with watery eyes Not really listening Just hoping she can get a disguise To hide her horrible soul scarred with pain And the empty face without a name She's wishing to be everything she's not Praying for that with all she's got Which isn't a lot I just don't understand what people don't get Nothing will help her You cannot cure her Her tears leaving dark little paths on her cheeks The blackest of tears are falling tonight And she cannot take another fight The mask has been taken off and she's losing her grip She doesn't care anymore, she's letti

I Am by PunkerRocker43, literature

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I Am

I am the girl trying to smile through my pain I am just another ugly face without a name I am a wonderer, wondering if death is my fate I am your "friend" hiding my hate I am your girlfriend pretending I'm fine I am a wisher, wishing this life wasn't mine I am your best friend not telling you a thing I am a hider, hiding how much my heart stings I am a secret keeper, not telling how I feel I am a realist, knowing all this is real I am a dreamer, dreaming of the day I die I am a liar, not wanting to lie I am a cutter, hiding my scars I am your aquaintence, not showing the pain in my heart I am the outcast nobody likes I am the p

Used by PunkerRocker43, literature

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Used

And you wonder why I hate my life? You wonder why I'm not fine? You think you can help me? Well, you've run out of time. You want the truth you say? Look at my scars. You think I'm overreacting? Take a long look at my heart. You think I want attention? I dare you to look into my eyes. You think I wont do it? Watch me as I die. Are you beginning to see? Do you feel anything? Can you believe how truly horrid a person's life could be? Have you ever been sad? Of course you have. But like, really, really sad, where it seems like everything you do is bad? And it takes you over the edge? You want to know how it feels? Picture fal

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Grains of Sand by Disastercake, literature

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Grains of Sand

Grains of Sand You hid the truth no from my eye I wish I had known you wanted to die I wish I had been there those times you cry You have slipped through my fingers like grains of sand I would have been there to hold your hand I would have followed you across the land You could have held out for something new I would have caught on if I had a clue I would have helped you find a brighter view You could have told me just what was wrong I wish I had know you suffered so long I wish I had heard your heart's dark song You have made the decision too fast I could have helped sort out your past I could have hoped you life would last Y

The Reason I Work by FurzyBear, literature

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The Reason I Work

Through my constant working I try to tune out my heart Though avoiding what it is saying Is tearing me apart Yet I must remain silent I can never let it show Of this pain that is mine She must never know Even though I may see her Every day at school I can not show my feelings Why is love so cruel So instead I work every day Driving myself until I drop I am hoping by ignoring it These feelings will soon stop So daily I am hiding Before school even starts Keeping hidden my desires Ignoring my very heart

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PunkerRocker43

Nov 13, 2005

Holy crap!

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Omg .... haha how long has it been since you've seen me actually put a journal on this account?! January I think? Man, I havent been here in forever.... I think it's safe to think my teacher wont check it. I think I'm gunna transfer a lot of my stuff from here over to my other account. Heyyy anybody who cares~ check out my used to be now but now not gallery uglyduckling323.deviantart.com Annnnyway...well I'm gunna go do that now. You knw, I have 1,322 messages. I had more but I just went through and deleted about 50 of the 193 journals I started out with. And then I have 70 comments, 44 messages, 1073 deviantions. Wow. ^_^ Bah!

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Arcticlightning

Sep 5, 2005

YOU HAVE BEEN HUGGED!!!

Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)

*dingding* RULES:
1- You can hug the person who hugged you!
2- You can't hug the person more than 3 times
3- You -MUST- hug 6 other people
4- You should hug them in public! Paste it on their user page! c'mon..don't be scared of public displays of affection
5- Random hugs are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
6- You should most definitely get started hugging right away!